Hello All,
Determination. Focus. Faith. Vision. Yet so very many things to distract us. The bible says “My people perish for lack of vision.” So true. A clear vision, with plans to attain it, and goals written down with deadlines. Where do I want to be at the end of 2010. Where do I want to be in two years. Five. Ten. Twenty. And what kind of elder do I want to be. I’ve had plenty of time to reflect lately and my goal is to finish my race with determination. To go out with a clear perspective and leave behind a blessed family legacy. So it is, I’ve got my work cut out for me.
I’ll be doing away with a lot of the distractions and noise. It’s the little foxes that spoil the vine. I don’t want to have lived my life without having lived it fully and abundantly as was promised. I plan to be a wise old woman full of knowledge and understanding. I want to be able to pierce through the gross darkness of the world. I want to be able to help people up til my dying day. I want crowns. But most of all I want to hear, “Well done my good and faithful servant.” It’s all a choice you know. Which road to go down.
I’ll be staying my course on the long and narrow road, but with much more unction. I just spent 2 1/2 months layed up with a fractured hip having been stampeded by my 150# male goat named Marco. Many of you know I just purchased a small herd of Dairy Goats. Well, in the process of learning how to take care of them I took some hard falls. In my ignorance I learned to never ever, under any circumstance, carry food into the gate. They’re always hungry and trip you right up. It was that last fall where I was knocked into a tree and landed on a big root that got me. That was the one where I cried “Help! I’ve fallen and I can’t get back up,” just like that old commercial.
While it was extremely inconvenient to be out of commission, in retrospect the downtime was good for me. I needed it. Hurrying here. Rushing there. Always trying not to be late. Do this, don’t do that, can’t you read the sign. Wow, just sit down and be still for awhile. What’s the profit if you lose your peace. Peace is everything to maintain a balanced life.
And so it is. Peace. That was my epiphany. Oh, this will not be a lay down easy thing to acquire. Just sitting by watching the tide roll away. Peace is not sitting beside a beautiful (yet stagnant) pond enjoying the water lilies and green pastures. Peace is staying your calm on a small branch over hanging a raging waterfall as a baby bird would be, nestled under her mothers wings. Peace is an aggressive all out plan of war. Seriously, something tries to steal our peace every single day of our lives morning, noon, and night. Well, I’m literally sick of it. I’m on the offence now. Think about it, how many of us can lay our heads on our pillow at night and think peaceful thoughts? And be satisfied with what a focused and productive day we just had. Not many that I know, myself included.
So I will sign off with this. Peace, Love, Grace, and Mercy to you all in 2010. May you grow in wisdom and insight. What does it profit a man to gain the world and lose his soul?
Blessings and Healing to All,
Cynthia Auer
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